Still

My heart is as placid as the

lake, and a rowboat glides smoothly

over the stillness

whilst underneath life churns.

Things eat each other.

Dive bomb birds,

cast lines reel,

and memories swirl

but the rowboat continues

to the very center

unperturbed

and drops it's anchor

into the churning

homeostasis.

Kineticism

It's as though magnetism

is pulling me into every

possible corner of my existence,

but because equal and opposite

force is being exerted

from every direction,

I remain intact and still,

while highly energized

with potential.

Hope From Lilli

Beautiful Lilli bud,

frosted over before you could bloom,

tonight I sing for you,

flowering voices filling the room

and we grow because you made us want to,

what many of us needed

was a sweet miracle like you.

That Feeling

To me,

being kissed,

eating chocolate,

and having a good choir rehearsal

are all the same feeling.

Watery in General

I should be studying.

If only my mind would hold still.

Oh, well, I'll see my love tonight,

and hope that holding him will cause

the contents of my body to solidify.

I'm tired of being all washed up.

A Horribly Revealing Dream

Last night I had a dream in which I found a person who embodied a compilation of everyone who'd ever teased me, snickered at the things I believe in, or shoved me around.
I went up to this person, and started physically fighting him. I told him I would stop if only he'd apologize for terrorizing another human being to the point of wanting to kill herself.
He just laughed at my efforts.
I drew on my anger. I started scratching, pinching, biting, punching hard until my new engagement ring was leaving bruises in his bare skin. Finally, I made him apologize, and promise never to bully again.
I stopped, and felt a small satisfaction.
Then I saw a letter of recommendation written by a compilation of everyone I've ever admired.
It read, "Kaylie is the hope of this world, because no matter how dark it gets, she won't become her own form of control, but let the true light shine to every corner that needs it."
I'm trying to find a moment in which I've felt more shame.

This Love Potion Tastes Funny

One sip at a time,
I will take the bitter with the sweet,
for the love is worth the aftertaste,
and kisses will wash it away eventually.