That Feeling

To me,

being kissed,

eating chocolate,

and having a good choir rehearsal

are all the same feeling.

Watery in General

I should be studying.

If only my mind would hold still.

Oh, well, I'll see my love tonight,

and hope that holding him will cause

the contents of my body to solidify.

I'm tired of being all washed up.

A Horribly Revealing Dream

Last night I had a dream in which I found a person who embodied a compilation of everyone who'd ever teased me, snickered at the things I believe in, or shoved me around.
I went up to this person, and started physically fighting him. I told him I would stop if only he'd apologize for terrorizing another human being to the point of wanting to kill herself.
He just laughed at my efforts.
I drew on my anger. I started scratching, pinching, biting, punching hard until my new engagement ring was leaving bruises in his bare skin. Finally, I made him apologize, and promise never to bully again.
I stopped, and felt a small satisfaction.
Then I saw a letter of recommendation written by a compilation of everyone I've ever admired.
It read, "Kaylie is the hope of this world, because no matter how dark it gets, she won't become her own form of control, but let the true light shine to every corner that needs it."
I'm trying to find a moment in which I've felt more shame.

This Love Potion Tastes Funny

One sip at a time,
I will take the bitter with the sweet,
for the love is worth the aftertaste,
and kisses will wash it away eventually.

If.

If happiness was gold,
you'd be making me rich.
If I could carry every burden you had,
I would march to Mordor and drop them into the volcano.
Im mele'eth le.
If you read this,
would you kiss me?

Idiom

"How could you?" used to be nothing more to me
than an accusatory idiom.
Now I'm just honestly curious.

You.

You
are my mentor,
my dungeon master,
my best friend,
and the one I want to share all of me with.
I
would lay down my life for you,
dream about kissing you all day long,
want to spend the rest of my life with you,
want to be holding your hand when the world ends,
think the habitants of my fish tank are cooler than a t-rex
just because we picked them out together
and you said I could have pet rats in our future house
even though you hate them,
and 74% of the time I'd probably even share my last cookie with you.